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We're flying off in eight hours and I'm fucking stressed.

Maehanyi
ok you know what i'll go ask joanne for the stock list

wangxuan
cos we have like 2 levels of shelves plus the table
so need at least like 1.5 metres?

Maehanyi
omg she doesn't have a handphone number
life sucks

wangxuan
omg D:
seriously! she doesn't have a handphone?!

Maehanyi
under coy directory it's NA
.____.

wangxuan
DL
*D:
omg how
ask fang?

Maehanyi
she's overseas
D: D: D:

wangxuan
D:
the other one??

Maehanyi
cherlene migrated
HAHAHAHAHAHA

wangxuan
ohhh
OMG
HAHAHAHA

Hello Hanin if our proposal ends up half empty you know why :((((((
AND WE ARE FLYING OFF IN TWENTY HOURS AHHHH.

Still desperately printing out Simile List and omg haven't packed and finished proposal hahahahahaha life sucks.

I think we've disappointed ourselves far too much. When did we cross the line between confidence and overconfidence?And when did we forget that we've got a bigger part to play? We did the opposite.

I can't even stand looking at you nowadays. There are so many things I strongly dislike about you, especially your desire to be better than everyone at everything. Everyone can see through your snide comments about the rest of the world so get over yourself and your failures and move on already.

I'm sorry for getting annoyed at you yesterday. I think I was scared to hear the truth :( I thought it'd make more sense to be angry at the generalizations you're imposing on me but I couldn't find it within me so I guess it really is true. Ah well.

You. You're always the problem. Can you, for once in your life, be more supportive? I'd like to think you have that within you.

And arghhh there's just so much to do now and it would be incredibly exciting IF YOU STOP CHALLENGING EVERYTHING.

Don't ruin one of the best moments of 2010. You nearly did for the rest of it.

So tired and so hungry :(
I can't handle late nights lah seriously and there's still so much left to do. I'm going to get killed tomorrow, I have eight whole hours with mentor/teacher interaction time LOL FML.

Right now, five more days. 8D
Kinda worried, very excited.

GLT!!!!

Haha lately my posts have been so OSL-filled.
(My life has been OSL-filled.)
I LOVE YOU B11ATCH.

Goodnight :(((((

My entire life is being swallowed up by OSL and... I like it. I really really love all the last minute rush (and formatting, for that matter) even though it can stress the hell out of us.

I LOVE GLT.
Bestest comm ever we're going to stay up and rush out about half of our comm's jobscope in two days hell yeah.

So much for our original 31 August deadline are we cool or cool.

Not to mention our Grand Plans of night shifts I think they'll probably make us sleep :(

Haha over the next few days I'm really going to give my all to OSL. I guess it's kind of like making up for all the time I lost feeling... apart, hmm. I haven't even touched Tumblr in about what, two three weeks?

!!!

EIGHT MORE DAYS CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight I fall asleep very happy :)

Speak now, or forever hold your peace.

NINGXIN: Sorry I never find time to go out with you :((( I swear we'll go out before the new year okay! LOVE YOU.
RAE-ANN: Like I promised, RAE-ANN HAS THE BESTEST FATHER EVER who went down to Bugis to get us HP7 tickets, for yesterday's screening. (Because 1. WE LOVE HARRY POTTER and 2. we have no other free day, except for the public holiday, fml)

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 was bloody awesome.
Best movie so far, I swear!
I love you, four people from B11ATCH who came with me. HanJun Amelia Rae-Ann Laura!

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I think my parents completely cannot understand the meaning of taking risks.
I'm going to grow up the exact opposite. I hope.

We always turn into what we swore never to become.

Anyway pretty much done with OSL stuff in terms of Lesson Plans. Still have all the aesthetic-y stuff!
And I like the hype that's coming along with this rush to get everything done on time.

It's like, we all know when what's due, we all know it's due so soon, but I don't feel the pressure to do it. It's not like we're constantly asked why it's not sent in, it's just that we feel the need to get it done because we know it's our duty to the team, our duty as the team, and well... I think this was the atmosphere I was looking forward to in the entire OSL experience.

Working towards something, and seeing it materialize before you.

Probably why I was so detached from OSL earlier, I just couldn't see the bigger picture forming. Hmm.


I'm really quite excited for my (non-existent) holidays - there's OSL, family trip, and then right after that we can plunge into Guides and Cheer planning!! Oh dear time to look at the CCAO proposal, time to edit workplan.

It's a very different feeling when you do work for something you care about.

I AM SO HAPPY

JUST FINISHED WITH THE IT GUIDEBOOK

PROB HAVE TO MAKE CHANGES
AND MAKE LESSON LOGS TOO

BUT OMG

SO
HAPPY

Will go sleep now and wake up in a few hours to watch Harry Potter with my awesome friends <3

COH Retreat can be summed up in two words, misaligned expectations.

And because of that, everyone loses.

I think we all had fun, but the general feeling I leave with, after the entire duration of the retreat is simply... loss, disappointment, and as a result I'm just pretty angry/angsty about the whole thing.

Why this happens:
1. Expectations.
Everybody walked in with some preconception on what it's going to be like, and bloody hell, everyone expected different things - it'd be impossible to please everyone, nobody leaves happy.

At the same time though, if you made a promise, the least we could expect is for it to be kept. Since you had full control from the start as to how the situation will turn out, don't break a promise. Especially in front of us.

And I know I disappointed a lot of people. We all got disappointed, a little too much.

2. Our personalities.
They're too strong, I guess. We see things one way and refuse to look at it in another way. We expect things to go like that, and when it hits far off the mark we don't understand why. We make assumptions, we make accusations.

And while we still have the humility to reflect and apologise, it only comes about with reasons that we believe in.

You're the same, you know.
We're just the same people, coming from two opposite ends of the spectrum.




Argh I think this camp just made me lose a litle bit of Guides, and gain a little more of B11ATCH.

But it won't last, I'm seeing all of you again tomorrow.
<3

And that's the way it should be, nothing more.

And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walking till you find the window.

Don't lose this just like that.
Choose the one that means the most to you.

Hmm, updates on life.

1. Going to have to start swimming two to three (three to five, says dad) times a week, on doctor's orders. .__.
2. Today is the first day I lit a fire L O L good luck orchid (Jocie, Alicia says you're not good either hahaha <3 but I love your husk!) good luck me.
3. Tried looking for punk on my way home today but even though there are so many trees either a. everything's just too pampered with water to die and shrivel up b. we have a very efficient estate gardener. And my house doesn't have leaves RG SCAVENGING TOMORROW.
4. COH Retreat tomorrow and Sunday! Pretty excited, for outdoor cooking especially, oddly enough.


But because TODAY I AM ANGSTY,
1. Honestly, don't bother. I don't get why I always wait till the roles are reversed rawrr.
2. You disgust me on so many levels I forget them time and time again but you remind me EVERYDAY BECAUSE YOU DISGUST ME EVERYDAY.
3. You're gonna need followers if you want to be a leader, dearie. Right now, you're not any better than the rest of us.

And my dad is taking me out for dinner at Jack's Place!

Speaking of which I have a new diet tracker thing - not as a diet, but so I won't keep eating unhealthy stuff, so policy is don't write anything I'll feel ashamed of.

But I'm buying bubble tea and random food and thinking nah I won't be ashamed of food that tastes so good I AM A FAILURE :(

Welfare Comm finally got around to doing something for the class, which I won't say here, even though I doubt any of my classmates read this, except for doob. Hope they don't see the quotes as something offensive because... well I got them from Tumblr!!

Anyway Doobie you should some to school tomorrow, because:
1. Progress Reports, duh.
2. $2 food party!
3. I have a shitload of stuff that belong to you I AM NOT KEEPING IT OVER THE HOLIDAYS.

After physical training (which just reinforced my unfitness - then Mr Segarra said to us, we need to know that you can run, if the need arises. First thought: holy shit. Second thought: touchwood. Third thought: wtf, if I'm running away from danger I'll turn into Usain Bolt EVERYBODY WILL), I went to the Guides Room to see the QMs in there stocktaking, and counting markers because we set the standard like that ;D

Fifteen minutes with Jocie and somehow it calmed me down a lot. Getting annoyed with a lot of things nowadays.

Can't wait for tomorrow with HanJun <3 Nice break. Don't mind if I bitch a hell lot. You understand HAHA.

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In case you haven't noticed, I know it's about me.
I'm just going to say there's a difference between trying to cure a problem created out of ignorance, as opposed to actively preventing it.

That's what it boils down to, even if that's not what it is.
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ANYBODY HAS A JODI PICOULT BOOK THAT I HAVEN'T READ?
Meaning a book that isn't Keeping Faith, Nineteen Minutes, Vanishing Acts, Tenth Circle, Mercy, My Sister's Keeper, Plain Truth, Change of Heart, House Rules, Handle With Care, Salem Falls, Second Glance uhh is that it? Whoa okay I'm quite pro hahaha lend me lend me!! I LOVE HER BOOKS.

Realised I can only read Jodi Picoult, J.K. Rowling and Meg Cabot without getting bored halfway.
Hmm.

1. I guess I'm getting pissed at the wrong people, but honestly, if you tick me off anymore than normal (and that'd be highly likely) within those two days, I'm not going to give a shit about respect.
2. OSL is coming in three weeks. Holy shitttt.
3. You know what I've always said about people affecting how you feel about things? Nowadays it's turning everything negative.

4. National Finals yesterday!
Really a very enjoyable experience, and we got a whole load of compliments for our board and whatnot. I think people were really impressed with our scrapbook/board so it made me very happy :) Especially our food puns!!

Biggest takeaway... I guess it was something from the ex-grand champion etc etc person's speech?

Well it really brought to light how much we can do. When he was 13, his group worked on electricity conversion. A stupid topic, in my opinion, because it never seems to work, never seems to help.

They impacted 80,000 people. They saved their district about $200,000. They were two years younger than us, but they dreamed so much bigger and achieved so much more than we dare let ourselves think about.

WE'RE FOODCHUCK, DUDES, AND WE'RE IN SINGAPORE.
If we're not going to take advantage of this opportunity, everything's going to go to waste. (No pun intended hahah)

5. I don't like watching people dance half-heartedly. If you want to do it, give it all you got, and that shouldn't embarrass you.
6. Can't wait for Tuesday's auditions. And I want to pon tomorrow, but, ah well. Welfare Comm.

I needn't try, you know. I'm just giving you the respect I'd think you'd want, so the least you could do is accept it more graciously. When I did try.


CmPS Fair tomorrow, I'm super excited. This entire experience really has been very very very memorable. (:

Anyway, I have ten thousand things happening on 15th November but I forgot what. PEOPLE PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME I haven't been using iCal so I'm kind of lost now.

CmPS Interview today!
Honestly I don't think we're going to get in, which is a good thing, because then we won't get disappointed! But I'm already incredibly proud of what we've done, whether we win or not won't affect how awesome we think our group/project is.

Anyway, if you're free, come on down to RGS Canteen on Saturday, 6th November, anytime from 8a.m. to... idk, 2p.m.? FOODCHUCK IS OUTSIDE STALL 10 and is composed of pure awesomeness.

Which we very shamelessly showed the judges hahaha THAT'S WHAT MAKES US WHO WE ARE.

I love FOODCHUCK and our mentors!! Who refuse to admit that we have awesomely funny jokes.

Now everything's reminding me of FOODCHUCK omg I love you all. <3


Anyway, tonight and tomorrow I'm just going to slack hahaha, I'm shit tired. And then start focusing on the other things to do :/
FOODCHUCKFOODCHUCKFOODCHUCKFOODCHUCKFOODCHUCK it's a sign!!!

I've spent the last two weeks being nothing but tired.
But at the end of the day, I wouldn't exchange this experience for anything.

I love FOODCHUCK, I love our hoboing at Cheryl's house for 12 hours straight for so many days, I love how we all call our parents at the same time and beg for time extensions, how we expect nothing from ourselves but produce the most amazing products (if I might say so myself haha!), all our chindian and Doob's appetite jokes, how we've slowly found everyone's talent over the course of competition preparation. I love our food puns, paedo-ing over Cheryl's brothers, eating, BAND HERO, TABLE SOCCER, and I really have a lot a lot a lot of fun with all of you!!

HAHAHA omg shit all my new facebook photos with y'all are damn embarrassing.

Today's milk tea session with B11ATCH was awesome, I love you all so so so so so so much!!! And I miss all of you too :( Twinneh we need to watch a movie together!! OMG HARRY POTTER? But if you watch with me I demand we book tickets for the premiere date hahaha, PLEASE? :D Anyone else?

I LOVE THE WORLD.
I desperately want to sleep now.

Emails to send! :O

I just realised that I'm drifting from my friends in the midst of everything post-EYA. I miss you guys so much. I haven't gone out in forever, when I come home I can barely stay awake/ generally moodless to start a conversation.

I think the worst part is, I'm not losing time with the people I love in exchange for spending time on the things I love. I don't even know what I'm working for sometimes, because I guess I don't really know how to separate what I want to do from the environment/general atmosphere it provides.

I remember last year, I never understood why people missed CCA for other things. Now I understand too well.


I'm missing the last Guides session of the year.
I don't know why it upsets me so much.

B11ATCH is milk tea still on? I can make it after 5.

<3

Auditions today was super fun!
Makes me miss Cheer a lot :( I love you Waddle Cheerleading!!!
(Except the one with the ugly fringe. <3)

I hope the decisions we make are free from politics and preconceptions. Hmm.

Anyway, I've decided that I'm not going to post about things/people I don't want to care about.
K I'M NOT THAT PRO.

Sigh right now all I want is:
1. A night before 9
2. A morning after 10
3. Joined together

Very tired, and I left Keeping Faith at Cheryl's house and I desperately want to read it nowww!!! :(

I want the last word.