#443; we'll walk this road together
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be.
Eat, Pray, Love, Elizabeth Gilbert
Wake up call huh, very timely.
Things people do still have the same effect on me (even four months later).
This makes me feel really sad :/
When do we stop being innocent?
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So. Exactly 2 weeks of.. a truckload of joy, worry, hope, fear, fun, and love :)
This entire experience has such a Selection Camp feel to it - I walk away knowing I've learnt enough to compensate for whatever the outcome might turn out to be. Yesterday I said that position doesn't matter and Kim asked me really? And yesterday I had a dream and now I say: position will matter next Wednesday (it's the pivotal point of a whole new year and inevitably your position in that, the role you play and the significance of it will matter, a lot) But what I meant yesterday, what I still believe today, is that in the long run, after we get over initial rejection (which will be really quickly won't it - I foresee inclusion to the largest extent possible, please?) I know we'll all still give our all. Position will matter because in a way it still feels like a dictation of self-worth even though that's not the case but it's still another feeling that crops up again and again regardless and it formalizes everything we picture next year to be. But in the end, ultimately (and hence what really matters) is that position will not dictate what we can or cannot do, and I believe the seven of us will do whatever we can to carve bridges over rivers because none of us (and by us I mean b11atch) will leave twelve months from now with any regrets.
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Hola if you feel that you’ve been down the same road
I'm Not Afraid - Eminem
Yesterday after session the seven of us sat outside E102 as the CLs, ex-CLs and Guiders sat a wall away and we held hands and formed a little trust circle. Yin Yu went first (after open numbers) so we gave her a giant group hug then we returned to our little trust circle and sang the same song over and over again as Amelia pointed out the irony in this classroom being the home of our Enrollment in and we stared at our feet wondering what's going to happen next.
And yesterday when we told our juniors that batch changes your entire experience in Guides - I don't know if they had any idea how much we meant it. There are some things you just have to experience on your own (because words won't do it justice) but I don't want them to waste time like we did with their own friends and only seeing a fraction of what they could. I hope they find each other soon.
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