Find your dream. If you haven't found it, keep looking.Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it.
Have the courage to follow your heart and your intuition. Everything else is secondary.
You can only connect the dots looking back.
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Today, at 10AM, after struggling with a serious case of depression since my wife passed away earlier this year, I sat at my desk and stared down blankly at a large bottle of anti-depressants my doctor prescribed me. And just as I was considering swallowing them all, my daughter called to tell me she loves me. MMT
The purpose of life is a life of purpose.
- Robert Byrne
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Yesterday I woke up at 10.50 in the morning and after the initial surprise that I'd managed to sleep for so long did I truly realise how much I needed it. (Though the eyebags are still big, apparently.)
Was very, very productive - made cue cards, practised speech, completed my Geog Product, started on Chinese PT. (Just going to say that this isn't going to be the last time I miss school for a break.)
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Today I reached school nicely early, but not early enough for comm meeting ): I never make it to school before 7, even when I try .__.
Birthdays are Good Days - 1. WeiYi follows me around to places "because today's your birthday". 2. I can guilt trip my dad into waiting half an hour more when he's five minutes away from picking me up 3. People wish me left right center 4. (And I think one year's worth of wait in between birthdays have made me forget the fuzzy feeling of receiving presents) a. Thank you Phyllis - omg your present is very very pretty I like it I'm going to chop up my photos asap! You know I was looking at it the wrong way and everything was upside down and I started wondering very depressedly - do I have to take them out and flip them around then I realised I was looking at it the wrong way I am one year older but not any wiser ):
b. Thank you Doobie and Cheryl - I know I never get you two presents ): But I love the eclipse tumbler HAHA, I will attempt to keep it within the house for as long as possible before instincts take over and I accidentally lose it :D Nah, hahaha, thank youuu and I love the primary school standard card (though it's far above anything I could do, i know, I know. <3) and the pretty yellow paper with nice uhm penmanship and and <3
c. Thank you Sunflower - Keerthana for making me drop everything I was holding so I could receive the present with both hands LOL! I love love love the card it's going into my memory box :D And the cute little bear haha! Would tie it on my phone but I would dirty it ):
d. Thank you SH!!! Was very surprised when Laura walked into Chem class and said asked very properly to see me then when I walked out she began rattling a long string of words that are Above My Intellect (Surprise Your Friend 101 - make her feel stupid on her birthday, thanks ah), and insulted my intellect and then another long string of words that I was supposed to go find out the definition of (!!!) but I swear I know what.. 20% of them mean teehee. AH I LOVE YOU ALL I have the perfect use for the notebook but I shan't say what yet :) And then I hugged Laura very very happily and tightly and then she took her books about to go and I said not even one more hug? and she put them back down on the lockers with a sigh and hugged me again and I walked back into class with a very big smile :D
And best birthday present from RGS = going through a lot of stress and worry from the Orals, BUT I PRACTICALLY SKIPPED DOWN WHEN IT WAS OVERRRRR.
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Guides after that:
1. NCPC! Hahaha it was very fun Hanin WeiYI Vanessa and I were gayly skipping around and bursting into song and skipping some more, actual visit was a very common sense presentation with a police officer that was very close to sounding like a pervert hahaha (sorry my over analytical skills which are probably very screwed anyway) and we passed a very easy test and skipped back to school :D
2. Structure Comm! Hacked away at Freddo The Frog with Vanessa and through our pain we started thinking and talking about how time has flown, and how time will fly ): It really is very surreal - I have very clear memories of my sec one year and it one year it'll be leaving and it doesn't feel right, it doesn't feel enough ): LOVE YOU TWINNEH :D And thank you for your birthday wish bombard after assembly I was really touched that you remembered it without Facebook HAHA :D
3. Milk Tea! Ah never dies does it. And once again we shared gossip under the escalator and sipped at milk tea and laughed like crazy Kway we must go Koi tomorrow :D :D :D
And it's AA tomorrow and it feels so OMG IT'S TOMORROW but it hasn't sunk in that in exactly 24 hours we'd be in the midst of a wonderful campfire (without the fire, go away non-guides) watching juniors and seniors dance hahaha. Still have a lot of preparation left for tomorrow - really should not be here.
Tomorrow we will camwhore like there's no tomorrow (last year of watching AA!!!!) omg, last year.
