#185; dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
Monday, November 16, 2009
Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. Sometimes the smallest things mean the most.
Found it on
jocie's blog. There's a lot more of this but I didn't want to copy them all because they seemed rather personal, but this one was really the most meaningful out of them.
I think it's something I should really work towards next year - being kind, being nice, and also, not getting angry too easily. I realised this year that when I get angry/pissed, there are... three very different types.
First type is when I only get very mildly annoyed and my anger (if you'd even term it that) goes away as quickly as it comes, and all is forgotten within the next fifteen minutes. And it's really obvious when it's this kind of "anger" because I go back to normal within five seconds, haha. And the only sign of anger is probably... furrowing my eyebrows? I doubt that's anger though, just... brief annoyance, but still something I should not experience too much next year.
Second would be when I get really really annoyed at something and become very irritable towards anyone who had the misfortune of speaking to me then; it hasn't really happened before but nowadays it's hitting full-on so if I snap at you or just stop talking after a while I am really really sorry and I don't mean anything okay!
you could say it's PMS and you'd probably be right but no we should not be talking about stuff like that here, so. So next year I will really control my temper and even when my temper is at nothing at particular, I will make sure
no one is at the brunt of it, and again I'm very sorry about the past two weeks or so, because that's the period where this type of anger has been coming around way too much, probably because of all the different things happening at the same time, like ACP and cheer and my own need for freedom when it's close to the holidays. Next year, hell, next week, no more. I promise.
Third would be the very very angry anger. But I'm not the type who screams and shouts when I'm angry, this type of anger is more of the stony silence, sit down somewhere, please do not talk to me or I'm afraid I might just bite your head off kind of anger. But it happens really quite rarely, and mostly only when I'm under a lot of stress and someone does something irresponsible or uncalled for that just sets me off, really. I know Crystal has this kind of anger too, haha, hers is the bite/grind jaw type though O: Ah well, at least no one has the scream/shout type, except maybe... minchih? :D So next year, I will really refrain from all this kind of anger, I'll try to lessen my stress as much as possible (considering Sec2 is definitely waaay less stressful than Sec3), and no matter what, I will not take it out on anyone, such as like, snubbing them in SMSes or MSN convos, or anything really.
Sorry for all those I might have hurt with the second type of anger during the past few days, I'm ... normal again! LOL
Resolution #1 for 2010: Control my temper no matter what and very more importantly,
be nice to others.
Labels: reflections and resolutions for 2010
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